So now I have a part time job I thought my days off would be super productive but turns out that if I have a deadline looming I get really really good at procrastinating! Grrrr.
What the most frustrating part is, I really want to do get this stuff done, it is part of my dreams, part of my goals, part of my ‘dream life’ but alas I get nothing done instead.
The longer I leave the things I need to get done the more anxiety I can feel building up inside of me, I get down really quickly, I want to just hibernate, roll myself up in my duvet like a burrito, watch movies, and eat everything or nothing (that’s a lie, it’s always everything). I don’t want to go online, I don’t want to chat to my friends, or people on Instagram, go to work (I really like my new job), draw, paint, or make things.
It should be SO freaking simple too. I have a list, I have many lists, I make them simple, I write down small steps so I can tick each thing off and not overwhelm myself on purpose. My list is a well designed and curated tasking masterpiece that has taken me years to hone to make me feel positive and driven and productive; while actually being all those things too.
So I guess I just wanted to rant slightly at myself. Just get the hell on with it Emma! Get your list out, add ‘reply to important email’ (because I really need to do that) and get the first thing done…which is upload photos of pin. Easy peasy. (I say easy but my phone logged out of my google account, I obviously didn’t know my password, ugh, it’s small things like this that can easily stop me getting anywhere, anyway get on with it Emma!).